Hey guys n gals. Sorry I've been really inconsistent with blogging regularly. But I'll stay up a little late...because you're all just that awesome.
Ok, so alot has happened since last time I left off. Works going ok, but gets frustrating sometimes because our jobs are supposed to be our main missions field. But with my job, I work with men in their fifties...because of that wide generation gap, its really hard to sort of relate to them. And when we're assigned by our director to find a time to hang out with them, it gets hard because I feel it'd be a little weird for a 22 year old guy ask a 50 something year old guy to go hang out or go fishing...don't get me wrong, I'm trying my hardest to seek the opportunities to minister to them...but honestly I've found myself being amazed by THEM and THEIR outlook on life.
They're really some of the nicest people I've ever met. I'm truly honored and often times humbled by these men and their character and personality.
I feel I've been having a hard time mourning my father. I've been struggling alot lately. It's not just a "having a bad day". I've noticed guys don't mourn like that. We're more of a "having a bad moment" kind of people that can get triggered by anything that may spark a fond memory. And I've been having quite a few of those moments the last couple weeks. So to those of you out there who're reading this and are on project with me, I apologize if you think I've been having a poor attitude, I'm just having a rough time. I'm not sure how many people know. I know staff does and my roommates, and some of the other students on project. I don't know why, but just letting the whole project know and sort of call myself out feels like it'd be some sort of weight lifted off my chest.
Just because I'm having a rough time with that doesn't mean Gods not working in my life though. I've noticed immense change in myself. I've noticed that the small things really don't matter anymore. I've discovered how fun and freeing it is to go with the flow and to not fret about every detail in life.
It's crazy to think that we have only 3 weeks left of project. I'm not ready to leave these friendships, relationships, I'm not ready to leave this brotherhood or fraternity. But I'm excited still, to go back and put into practice that which I'm learning. I think thats all I'm going to write.
You guys n gals are awesome!!
In His Grasp,
Andrew
hang in there bro. I'm sure God is using you more than you think in the lives of those men. Praying for you, can't wait to see you.
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